Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Hope is so Powerful


I was inspired by this story. This week I have needed to have some hope myself and faith to believe God is sovereign over all. I hope this will encourage you as it did me.


A Girl With An Apple
(This is a true story and you can find out more by googling Herman Rosenblat. He was Bar Mitzvahed at age 75)

August 1942. Piotrkow , Poland .

The sky was gloomy that morning as we waited anxiously. All the men, women and children of Piotrkow's Jewish ghetto had been herded into a square.Word had gotten around that we were being moved. My father had only recently died from typhus, which had run rampant through the crowded ghetto. My greatest fear was that our family would be separated.

'Whatever you do,' Isidore, my eldest brother, whispered to me, 'don't tell them your age. Say you're sixteen. 'I was tall for a boy of 11, so I could pull it off. That way I might be deemed valuable as a worker.

An SS man approached me, boots clicking against the cobblestones. He looked me up and down, and then asked my age.'Sixteen,' I said. He directed me to the left, where my three brothers and other healthy young men already stood.My mother was motioned to the right with the other women, children, sick and elderly people.

I whispered to Isidore, 'Why?'He didn't answer.I ran to Mama's side and said I wanted to stay with her.'No, 'she said sternly.'Get away. Don't be a nuisance. Go with your brothers.'
She had never spoken so harshly before. But I understood: She wasprotecting me. She loved me so much that, just this once, she pretended not to. It was the last I ever saw of her.

My brothers and I were transported in a cattle car to Germany. We arrived at the Buchenwald concentration camp one night weeks later and were led into a crowded barrack. The next day, we were issued uniforms and identification numbers.

'Don't call me Herman anymore.' I said to my brothers. 'Call me 94983.'I was put to work in the camp's crematorium, loading the dead into a hand-cranked elevator. I, too, felt dead. Hardened, I had become a number. Soon, my brothers and I were sent to Schlieben, one of Buchenwald 's sub-camps near Berlin .

One morning I thought I heard my mother's voice. 'Son,' she said softly but clearly, I am going to send you an angel. Then I woke up. Just a dream. A beautiful dream.But in this place there could be no angels. There was only work. And hunger. And fear.

A couple of days later, I was walking around the camp, around the barracks, near the barbed-wire fence where the guards could not easily see. I was alone.On the other side of the fence, I spotted someone: a little girl with light, almost luminous curls. She was half-hidden behind a birch tree.

I glanced around to make sure no one saw me. I called to her softly in German. 'Do you have something to eat?' She didn't understand. I inched closer to the fence and repeated the question in Polish. She stepped forward. I was thin and gaunt, with rags wrapped around my feet, but the girl looked unafraid. In her eyes, I saw life. She pulled an apple from her woolen jacket and threw it over the fence.I grabbed the fruit and, as I started to run away, I heard her say faintly, 'I'll see you tomorrow.'

I returned to the same spot by the fence at the same time every day. She was always there with something for me to eat - a hunk of bread or, better yet, an apple.

We didn't dare speak or linger. To be caught would mean death for us both.I didn't know anything about her, just a kind farm girl, except that she understood Polish. What was her name? Why was she risking her life for me? Hope was in such short supply, and this girl on the other side of the fence gave me some, as nourishing in its way as the bread and apples.Nearly seven months later, my brothers and I were crammed into a coal car and shipped to Theresienstadt camp in Czechoslovakia.'Don't return,' I told the girl that day. 'We're leaving.'I turned toward the barracks and didn't look back, didn't even say good-bye to the little girl whose name I'd never learned, the girl with the apples.

We were in Theresienstadt for three months. The war was winding down and Allied forces were closing in, yet my fate seemed sealed.

On May 10, 1945, I was scheduled to die in the gas chamber at 10:00 AM.

In the quiet of dawn, I tried to prepare myself. So many times death seemed ready to claim me, but somehow I'd survived. Now, it was over.

I thought of my parents. At least, I thought, we will be reunited. But at 8 A.M. there was a commotion. I heard shouts, and saw people running every which way through camp. I caught up with my brothers. Russian troops had liberated the camp! The gates swung open. Everyone was running, so I did too. Amazingly, all of my brothers had survived;I'm not sure how. But I knew that the girl with the apples had been the key to my survival. In a place where evil seemed triumphant, one person's goodness had saved my life, had given me hope in a place where there was none.My mother had promised to send me an angel, and the angel had come.

Eventually I made my way to England where I was sponsored by a Jewish charity, put up in a hostel with other boys who had survived the Holocaust and trained in electronics. Then I came to America, where my brother Sam had already moved. I served in the U. S. Army during the Korean War, and returned to New York City after two years.By August 1957 I'd opened my own electronics repair shop. I was starting to settle in. One day, my friend Sid whom I knew from England called me. 'I've got a date. She's got a Polish friend. Let's double date.' A blind date? Nah, that wasn't for me. But Sid kept pestering me, and a few days later we headed up to the Bronx to pick up his date and her friend Roma.

I had to admit, for a blind date this wasn't so bad. Roma was a nurse at a Bronx hospital. She was kind and smart. Beautiful, too, with swirling brown curls and green, almond-shaped eyes that sparkled with life.

The four of us drove out to Coney Island. Roma was easy to talk to, easy to be with. Turned out she was wary of blind dates too!We were both just doing our friends a favor. We took a stroll on the boardwalk, enjoying the salty Atlantic breeze, and then had dinner by the shore. I couldn't remember having a better time. We piled back into Sid's car, Roma and me sharing the backseat.

As European Jews who had survived the war, we were aware that much had been left unsaid between us. She broached the subject, 'Where were you,' she asked softly, 'during the war?' 'The camps,' I said. The terrible memories still vivid, the irreparable loss. I had tried to forget. But you can never forget.She nodded. 'My family was hiding on a farm in Germany, not far from Berlin ,' she told me. 'My father knew a priest, and he got us Aryan papers.'I imagined how she must have suffered too, fear, a constant companion. And yet here we were both survivors, in a new world.

'There was a camp next to the farm.' Roma continued. 'I saw a boy there and I would throw him apples every day.'

What an amazing coincidence that she had helped some other boy.

'What did he look like? I asked.'He was tall, skinny, and hungry. I must have seen him every day for six months.'

My heart was racing. I couldn't believe it. This couldn't be. 'Did he tell you one day not to come back because he was leaving Schlieben?'

Roma looked at me in amazement. 'Yes!'

'That was me!' I was ready to burst with joy and awe, flooded with emotions. I couldn't believe it! My angel.

'I'm not letting you go.' I said to Roma. And in the back of the car on that blind date, I proposed to her. I didn't want to wait.

'You're crazy!' she said. But she invited me to meet her parents for Shabbat dinner the following week.

There was so much I looked forward to learning about Roma, but the most important things I always knew: her steadfastness, her goodness. For many months, in the worst of circumstances, she had come to the fence and given me hope. Now that I'd found her again, I could never let her go.
That day, she said yes. And I kept my word. After nearly 50 years of marriage, two children and three grandchildren, I have never let her go.
-- Herman Rosenblat of Miami Beach, Florida ---

This story is being made into a movie called The Fence.

Monday, September 29, 2008

Burdens Lifted

On the home front while we wait for more news of Sweetpea we have been praying for my dear husbands mom. She had a tumor growing in her neck and today she underwent surgery. It was such a relief to hear that she made it through fine, is in a lot of pain now but that the surgeons were able to get the whole thing out. The prognosis is good and we are so grateful that she is in the recovery stage. That makes both of our mom's in for surgery in the past year. It makes us reflect on how much we love them and how much they have given to us during our lives. We are blessed to be loved by these great women, they are treasures to us and to our children.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Plans change, Plan B

Things have changed a bit in the last 2 weeks. It has been an emotional rollercoaster but it looks like we are not going to Singapore as planned in early Oct. to meet Sweetpea when she comes in from the Philippines. Her first family decided that they wanted to have her stay with them for a few days to get her tested for TB. They had visions of an international incident akin to that fellow who went to Europe with TB to get married and came back and is now held in isolation somewhere in Denver Colorado.

After talking it over with our lawyer he strongly suggested that it would be to our benefit to have them run some other tests and also provide her with some basic medical care before we fly all the way there. So right now the tests will be run on the 8th and we will get the results back on the 10th of Oct. If for some aberrant reason she does have active tuberculosis she will not be allowed to fly for the next 9 months anyway, and all the plans get scrubbed. She would need to be medically treated for those 9 months and then cleared of active TB before she would be allowed to board a plane.

The biggest question is what makes them think of this? We don't know. They have not had contact with her over the past 6 months in order to suspect that she is symptomatic. If they were told that she was symptomatic they are both doctors and would suspect active TB right away and not delay in getting her treatment, we hope. We only have our own speculations and those are not profitable to dwell on. We do know that God is the God of the universe and it is in him we trust.

So the plan as it is vaguely formed at the moment is that on the 7th she will return from the Philippines to her first family in Singapore. Her Filipina caretaker, Carmelita, will stay on with the family to care for her. She will get medical attention on the 8th and tests will be run. On the 10th they will get the test results and depending on the outcome we will hopefully be booking tickets to Singapore for the following week. That would put us in Singapore around the 18th of Oct we think. We don't know at this point what the game plan will be from there. We will have to keep you posted.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Take me out to the Ball game


This evening we took the kids out to the ball game.....and we had a really nice time. I love it when sweet memories are made and you don't even have to try really hard!

The ball park was only half full and we were above homeplate. The older girls took their cute selves down to the first row seats which were entirely empty and got to watch an inning there and taste the dust from the batters box. It was our middle daughter's blessing to be that up close and personal.

The kids had a very rare treat of a ring pop supplied by some over zealous Sunday school teachers who shall remain anonymous but who we think are trying to win the prize for being voted "Coolest Parents Ever". They got to indulge their sweet tooth at the ball game as we wiled away inning after inning.

The evening ended with a firework display. Sitting there with my family watching the fireworks was like a special prize. I am so blessed. Blessed to have such wonderful kids. Blessed to have such a handsome and loving husband. Blessed to live in a country free to celebrate a Sunday evening ballgame with fireworks and a young girl singing "God Bless America".

We sauntered out of the ball field lingering over the last drifts of smoke from the fireworks and said a final farewell to our summer. What a fitting end. What a great memory.


Saturday, September 20, 2008

Asking for the simple things


We were blessed today in such a precious way that I wanted to share of God's faithfulness.

I was travelling home through a region not too familiar with me when I got inundated by local traffic coming out of a community fair. Not knowing much about the area I wanted to get out of the log jam and over to the highway in order to get home sooner. I saw a street that I thought would logically go through to the highway if I were to be able to turn left. Well, of course in the state we live in logic rarely is used in road planning so I ended up on a long dead end road. In hindsight if it had been the route I anticipated there should have been many more locals choosing "my" path of least resistance.

At the end of the road was a house with the remnants of a very large yard sale and out on the curb for trash was a variety of bikes of the smaller scale. I stopped and asked the man cleaning up if I could take a bike and was told to take as many as I would like. I looked and there was a 20" bike, purple and looking very good except for flat tires. I could only fit one in the car anyway and this 20 incher was exactly was I had been "shopping" for for about a year. I put it in my trunk and was about to leave when the man asked if he could help and he reloaded it so that it would completely fit in my trunk with the lid shut. What a gracious gift to me!

The bike was a complete blessing as my middle cutie has long, long legs and she is still riding around on a toddler 12" bike with her knees knocking the handlebars. It's rather clownish and she has been longsuffering in our search for another bike for her to ride. I was so blessed by God to see that he is taking care of our every need and some small desires too. She was thrilled to get it and now is impatient to have it fixed up so she can graduate to the world of big girl riding. God is so good to this mama's heart. Thank you Lord for your every kindness.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Mr. Beaver is the Lion safe?


Mr. Beaver is the Lion safe?

Safe, have you not heard anything Mrs. Beaver has said to you? Safe, who said anything about safe? He’s good, he’s king.

When we come to the vision God has for us, we ask, is it safe, does it make sense? But when God calls you to His vision, He calls you to something that transcends safety. He calls you to something that transcends common sense.

It is all about Jesus Christ. He will call to be a part of something bigger than ourselves. It is super-natural. If He does not intervene, we will not make it.
from Lori Salierno, September 17, 2008. Serving God With What You Have Focus on the Family Daily Program



How aptly this describes where we are at at the moment with the adoption. We are being made to reassess all of our basics again and put them before the Lord. We are praying and seeking God's face for wisdom, making sure that we are following the path that He has laid out for us......not wandering down our own. Please keep us tight in your prayers if you feel led, we are so grateful.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Fabulous News

It is truly a miracle to see the lonely be placed in a family. Today we got to witness through the web 3 of our dear friends become a family by God's Providence and the miracle of adoption.
We met this little 11 year old girl last summer when she was here in the US having medical intervention not available in China. She was an orphan, and had waited all her life to be adopted. She had seen countless number of children around her leave the orphanage to go into forever families through adoption but no one ever chose her. She longed with all her heart just to have a Dad.
Last summer through the concerted efforts of some friends who began to champion her cause many people came to know about her. One special couple took it further and put their faith and hope on the line and started the paperwork to adopt her. They were an unlikely couple, being recent empty-nesters, and they would need TWO special variances from China to be approved.

On the other hand this special little girl was running out of time. When a child turns 13 in China adoption is closed. Only children 12 and younger are adoptable under the current system. Many people prayed and interceded for the trio involved. Then we heard that China approved the parents, and then they had to wait the entire summer for the Olympics to be done in order to travel to adopt her.

Today they are a family and we are rejoicing with tears and thanksgiving for the wonderful thing that God has done. We cannot wait for them to come home to greet them and know that we will be almost neighbors!

Saturday, September 6, 2008

The big PLAN - hoping and praying

What's the plan? you might be saying to yourself. How are you going to unite this child who is currently in the Philippines with you who are obviously no where near south east Asia? Good questions. This is what we are thinking at this point........... subject to airline strikes and natural disasters.

We are going to fly to Singapore, the sweet hubby, myself and our littlest in early Oct. Probably around Oct 4. That will give us enough time to get our sea legs under us in a new country before needing to be mentally sharp for meeting Sweetpea. The day before Sweetpea is due to arrive in Singapore from the Philippines we will meet with her original family and have them sign the legal paperwork giving us guardianship over her. We will also discuss how the transition from them to us will happen the following day and what she needs to hear them say in order for her to have the best chance at making that break from her original family. This will be a little tricky and we are still researching this facet.

Sweetpea is due to arrive into Singapore under the supervision of her Filapina caretaker on Oct. 7. We plan to go to the airport with the family and be there when she arrives so that we can observe the initial interaction between the child and the parents. We are hoping to see some response of attachment from the child at this reunion, that will be a great indicator of hope. It will also mean that the initial separating will be hard but hopeful. If there has been attachment then there is hope for other attachments, if there is no sign of attachment that could mean bigger issues.

After the airport we hope to travel back to the family home with Sweetpea and be able to have a discussion with her and all the adults involved of what is happening. My heart breaks at this point because I just cannot fathom how a 6 year old is going to comprehend that she has been set out of her original family, to be placed into another family, at what must seem like whim to her.

Hopefully after this introduction and meeting we will take Sweetpea back to the hotel with us and begin to get to know her, and her us. This is where we think the youngest's presence will play a considerable role. She will be a comfort to Sweetpea in knowing that she is not alone with strange adults. Our littlest will also serve as a great role model of how things are done in our family i.e. how we snuggle, how we share, how we eat, and how we are loved unconditionally. Also the fact that they are so close in age it will give them a head start in getting to know one another and work on getting along before we add the older 2 into the mix.

We will stay a few days in Singapore mostly staying close to the hotel, hopefully swimming and playing, napping and eating --- setting up some basic family parameters that will help Sweetpea find safety with us and understand our role as her "new parents". We did not want to "grab and go" and take a child we barely knew on a 26 hour plane ride home when we have not a clue how to comfort her or how to minister to her needs. We need a little bonding time first before we make the great leap home, even though all we will want to do is dash at that point.

A big deterrent to staying in Singapore is the cost. EVERYTHING is soooooooo expensive. There is no getting by on the cheap there. We have looked into all the places we know to get a good deal and there is nothing suitable. Part of the issue is that we need something that will give us suitable space to have 2 kids and also have rest when we can, because we know the stress of it all is going to be exhausting. We aren't kidding ourselves and thinking we can bunk out at a backpackers dive for a week with 2 kids, one going over the falls in an emotional barrel, they'll kick us out for sure!

SO it's a balancing act of staying long enough so that Sweepea's needs are met and we are good to make the long trip home and yet not too long that it breaks the bank. We think a week will be just right, a day or 2 give or take.

We just can't wait to get her home with us and to get back on our territory where we are firmly grounded. We know that's when the real work begins. Everything leading up to that point seems very fragile and tentative. I will love to be able to post that we are safely home.
  • Pray that as we make our plans we listen and follow God's leading concerning what is best for those involved.
  • Pray for the original parents, that their hearts would be open to the gospel.
  • Pray that no matter how emotional the process gets that we will present the gospel in love in everything we do and say. We want to minister to their broken hearts as well.
  • Pray that the Holy Spirit is preparing Sweetpea for this big change that is going to happen soon in her life.
  • Pray that we will find the right place to stay that perfectly fits all our needs and our desire to effectively minister to both of our daughters as we stay there.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

God's Sweet Gift

There are many things that I have given to the Lord as I have felt beyond my own means to meet the challenge set before me in bringing Sweetpea into our home. This afternoon one of those prayers, pleaded from the depths of my heart, was answered without my having to do more than lay it at my Lord's feet. I was so touched and deeply encouraged that God sees my heart, sees my need and meets me even before the true trial begins. What sweet rejoicing I had this evening, and as I shared it with my girlies they too were in awe of what God does and how His people respond to Him. God is good.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

School Daze

Today we had a full, complete day of school and I am mentally exhausted. It was a good day and all 3 kids did well in balancing out their work vs. need to get help. We made a written schedule last week, complete with lunch menus and everyone was thrilled and skipping around with delight at starting school. I too like the new year routines of new books, new supplies, new schedules and the hope and promise of great things to happen in the year. Yet, as a jaded adult I know that disillusionment with the "thrill" is just around the corner in maybe Oct or Nov if we can slide past that far. That is when the daily grind becomes obedience and discipline for all of us.

Add into that equation the mental gymnastics I did today trying to see how I am going to fit our fourth daughter into this school house and still get everyone to stay on task when I am doing therapy with her. Bigger than that how are we going to float when all of them no longer want to toe the line and I am otherwise occupied with behavioral issues with any one of them but most likely our newest? On top of that is my great desire to do all this with a godly heart and with patience, kindness and righteousness....I'll get back to you on how that might be working out later.

Then the Lord gave me a few moments of time with Him and encouraged me greatly with these thoughts:

Do you not know? Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:28-31 (esv)

I am so mindful as we walk toward this adoption that God is leading the way and that I will be cared for by Him as much as this precious little one we seek to care for.

More to do this week as we go to meet with a possible specialist to see if they will take her on as a patient when she comes home, and then the wonderful fingerprinting for the federal clearances.

Please pray for us as we have begun to be burdened by the financial onus of this endeavor. We know that God has always taken care of this but looking those numbers in the face is a scary thing and shakes my faith a bit. We just don't have time to do any fundraising, it has to fall like pennies from heaven.