Well Loved

Thank you for loving us, me especially as I pour out my heart in this blog. I was so touched by the numerous other parents who have gone through the same adoption transition that we are going through who emailed me or called today to encourage me. It is so uplifting to know that I am not alone, even though I know that logically - in the moment of total emotional exhaustion it can really seem like it.

I also want to say that I really am well loved by a bunch of wonderful friends from my church. They have surrounded me in such a profound way as we have walked in faith to gain custody of Sweetpea and begin the adoption process. The knowledge that they have made a commitment to pray for us for the long term, and for all the specifics, has been a pillar I have rested upon when I am too weary to even make a coherent prayer fall from my lips. They have taken turns in bringing dinner to my family for the past 2 weeks so that I have not had to cook or think about shopping for over 14 days, and their servanthood continues still. What amazing love, what a reflection of their hearts for the Lord! I am so humbled to be on the receiving end, and yet so grateful for the nourishment and sustenance. Sweetpea may even be wondering if I know HOW to cook at this point, it has not been proven in her experience. Thank you, my dear friends, my gratitude I cannot express properly.

I am bone tired. Please pray for me to get complete rest when I sleep and to have the energy and stamina to continue through the day. I found myself falling short this afternoon and being on the verge of crabby. I felt like all my softness had been worn off and all that I had to offer any of my kids was the bare bones. With more medical tests coming up this week and next I will need all my charm and patience to continue to love Sweetpea regardless of what her behavior is.